It seems that when it rains, it pours.
Looking back all of the large changes in my life have been marked by death.
Moved to a new home in a new state, my dog of 15 years dies.
Graduate from college, my grandmothers (both) die.
Moved out into 1st apartment, my cat of 16 years dies from pancreas failure.
Got engaged, my dog of 12 years dies from cancer.
Then... it gets quiet for a while. We buy a house, get married, and everything seems to be going to well. We get pregnant and at the 10 week mark, we find out we are miscarrying. I get a D&C done, my body retaliates, and a week later I find out my cat of 14 years has quick spreading cancer and will need to be put down. She will be put down on Monday after my post-op with my doctor. She will be surrounded by family and all the love we can offer.
My heart can't handle much more of this.
I don't honestly think I am strong enough to endure this year.
To hell with you, 2019.
To hell with you.
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